For more than a decade, my focus has been teaching women the Truth about men. That most of what we’ve believed about them has been a lie. Because the state of Christian Marriage has made it crystal clear that women – and men, too – are in great need of a Paradigm Shift.* And I still believe that’s true. But it’s not all we need to change.
We also need an understanding of Paradox in the Kingdom of Heaven (Luke 17:21). Have you ever noticed that God’s logic often doesn’t make sense? Two apparently conflicting concepts contained in the same Truth. For example:
Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person,
though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die.
But God demonstrates His own love for us in this:
While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Since we have now been justified by His blood,
how much more shall we be saved
from God’s wrath through Him! (Romans 5:7-9)
** Paradox – a statement or proposition that, despite sound (or apparently sound) reasoning from acceptable premises, leads to a conclusion that seems senseless, logically unacceptable, or self-contradictory.
As an official Late Bloomer, I spent a lot of years in survival mode. Struggling through college as a single mom.
Then grad school and trying to build a business.
My counseling practice launched when I got my Psychology License.
October 2007. Several of my clients were in real estate. Most were small business owners.
Economic issues hit them. Then they hit me.
Teaching kept me going financially. But working in three cities got to be too much.
So in May 2010 I left teaching to pursue my One True Passion.
Faith or Foolishness? Poor Timing? Or the wrong area of expertise?
During my post-doctoral work, I had developed a passion for helping Couples.
As a twice-divorced woman, no church wanted me as their marriage expert.
Thus far, it hasn’t seemed to matter that The Lord filled me with a Passion to fight divorce in Orange County. Because – as you can see – very little has worked in my favor in fulfilling that desire.
I held on for as long as I could. Fought as hard as I could. My resources gave out. The Father stopped me in my tracks.
During this time of uncertainty, I’ve been tempted to reinvent myself – my calling. But my Passion is so deeply ingrained in who I am that I have no idea where to begin.
So I wait. And I listen.
And I’ve learned to live in Joyful Anticipation.
The first thing The Lord has done is to show me Who He is for me. He never allows trials without an opportunity to become more like Him. In fact, that’s His primary desire for me. That’s why James said to count it all joy when we face trials of all kinds (James 1:2-8). Because every Trial has both a Test and a Temptation.
A test is God’s way of revealing who we are becoming in Christ.
The temptation is to allow the enemy to convince us of who we are not.
So the second thing The Lord has shown me is who He created me to be. From a purely material perspective, I’ve wasted my life learning about love, teaching others how to love and be loved, and never experiencing it for myself.
The enemy wants you to conclude that you are worthless in the Kingdom – and believe on a deeper level – that you are unwanted and unlovable.
Knowing who I am created to be – and I’ve heard it from multiple sources, including directly from The Father – should have made my priorities clear. But during this season of isolation – when I’ve little opportunity to work – He reminds me daily that He has given me a higher calling.
So has my education and experience been wasted? Or has it been my personal preparation to love and to be loved by this one man?